Message On Valentine

Message sent on Valentine's Day 14-2-2010

Hi, how are you?? I hope you are fine.

Do you remember me, Mohanad I can say that you   remembered me more than your name. Mohanad is the one who loved you more than anything in his life and you know that well do not ignore it or you do not have the right to ignore it. I am sure that you loved lust like I loved you but that is life that do not give the person all of his needs.

Oh, sorry I am so tough with you, I am talking to you as a guilty person and I am the judge but really you are neither guilty nor innocent. I just want to thank you for amazing days of love that we had lived together last year, do you remember those days??

I know that I am talking a lot all of these words don't work with you I am telling you now a story of a boy in his seventeenth of his age entered the college that he had dreamed all his life to enter it, searching for love or a new era in his life or maybe he wanted to learn a lot of beautiful things he did not know anything about it.

I will tell you this story but please read it till its end and don't feel bored.

Once upon a time a boy was so cheerful working hard in secondary stage to make his dream real by entering the college that he prefers from young age, he was crossing the road unfortunately a crazy driver hits our boy and doctors said that he might not walk again that was a changing point in his life, his dream was almost gone and he had completely crashed, his friends left him alone, he preferred dying but his dream was stronger than him, he had a soul of a samurai worrier and said no for everything. He studied hard achieving his dream, yes he could stand over all of the bad circumstances that were troubling his way. He decided to begin a new era in his life he was calling it a clean era with new and faithful friends , he wanted to find love that he had read about it and had seen it in movies but he did not even feel it . He considered finding love just like finding his soul or just finding a new life. He saw that he was a man sinking in water and love would be a rescuer that would return to him his life after he had lose hope to live again

Heeeeeeey, don't be lazy baby and stop reading

That's series

It is not a joke  

In his first week in the college he was so pleased with his achievement but he wanted to start searching for his goals.

But in the second week especially in Sunday he had a practical section of physics it was his first section, he did not know anything or anyone even he did not know what he had to do?

He started to feel nervous but something happened at this moment he did not know that this moment would change his life. While he was so busy in the experiment the inspector of his group came after his there was a girl wearing a blue jeans and T-shirt its color was turquoise. She was beautiful with long black hair and beautiful face but she was very nervous she had come late and also it was her first section. I and another one were doing experiment and girls in our group were writing conclusions and writing results. But unfortunately he had a trouble with her she took his sketch writing in it.

Me: what are you doing??

She: sorry, you had made a mistake in calculations I am changing it, is that wrong??

Really I can say that in that time I knew that I had to apologize to her for my idiot way in talking but how??simply I went to her and said I am sorry, she accepted that we started talking together very soon the section had finished we had to leave, for my good luck she was living near to my house and we returned home together in the way we talked a lot about everything, the roads were crowded as usual for the first time in my life the crowd traffic appeals to me. I knew everything about her life even she. We can say that we founded each other. When I left her and went home I was so pleased I felt a strange feeling I did not even feel it any time before. IS IT LOVE? I don't know but I felt very happy, I was dancing and felt that the whole world was dancing and singing with me, I cannot sleep this day. Then I realized that I loved her more than anything in my life I fell in love finally. I couldn't know when or where or even how this happened but yes it is love.

I realized that god gave me a present an angel from heaven because I worked hard and challenged all circumstances but now I can say that this wasn't a present but it was a test  and I am failed in it ,I am sorry to say that but it is the truth, I know truth always hurts.

I want to describe her as it was in my eye, her eyes were so beautiful like a diamonds that was very shiny and anyone felt pleased when you looked at them .

Her hair on her shoulders like a beautiful night in Hollywood where all stars are in the same place or I can say that it was like waterfall at Amazon River surrounding with tress .

Her voice like a mix of the best singers in the world or like a beautiful bird who sings everywhere in this world.

She was amazing. She had her own personality that appeals to me not like other girls who thought about eating ,sleeping and watching lazy movies on TV.

Soon we were friends we love each other we wanted to be friends forever, she made to me a lot of good things she made me give up smoking .she was always cheerful ,we were like a one creature you can say one soul has two bodies. It was amazing we spent together three months in love. I can say that there were the best three months in my life but that is our life and that is our destiny when we love someone he left us and when we leave someone to be our lover we found life was him safe , we were lovers the best lovers but love has gone as if it wasn't begin, who was the lover who can be back to his love??

She left me alone without any reason after all this love she left me I was shocked , she had a friend who was very jealous from our relations she lied at her saying about me things, I did not know anything about them . she left me I thought that she was an angel but unfortunately she was a devil. I made everything I could do to return this love as it was before but it was the end of happy days the end of love the end of openness even the end of ethics for me.

It was very hard feeling my beautiful angel who was always happy with me playing, eating, studying, and even crying together when anyone of us had a trouble.

She said to me I am afraid that I will travel and forget you but now I am sure I will never forget you, I will never forget the worst fault in my life.

I KNEW THAT YOU REMEBERED THAT WELL AND ALSO YOU ARE PROUD OF THAT BUT WAIT IT WASNOT THE END NO ONE CAN BEAT ME.

I felt very sad but soon I realized that in this world there is no love, friendship. I will live alone for myself only without love, marriage, or even friendship. I finally understood what I was and also what I supposed to be?? I can say to you now thanks ,

Yes thanks for everything for teaching me the real meaning of love. Love means pain, and I can stand against pain like a tree that stand winds but it will fixed in the earth forever, you teached me how to be a devil or a monster in a jungle who drinks his prey's blood and eating his flesh without any mercy also you teached me how to put my heart in my hand and never left it to beat or love again. We are in this fuckem world for working, gaining money, ad killing anyone that obstructs our way.

After all that I still love you I want to say happy valentine day what is your opinion to be back to our love as before, believe me our life will be better together, let's begin again and forget anything happened before, please I still love you.

I know I am idiot , I am really stupid to be like that . I don't want you again, you left me in the past but now I am the one who don't want you. I am not your slave or a dog to be back to you I can leave without you or without anyone else, I will achieve all my dreams alone without the help of any creature in this world . I can now say that I am without feelings or even ethics, I am a man who wants money, fame.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeee my baby

                                         Your past Mohand

You think that all of what I said is my dreams no, really no I will take my revenge, my revenge from you of what you had done for me I will have my dignity again.

I was very sad for losing you about 2 years but now I will inform myself to you, the person you had faked and love you died. I am a new one carrying his name. I am not that innocent idiot guy. and later you will discover that alone

Now I can say: Why would you care, if i die or live those stuff you can't ask me about
And what will you say, Who is changing for sure it appears on her
Why would you care, if i die or live those stuff you can't ask me about
And what will you say, Who is changing for sure it appears on her.

Who is front of me, she is someone I don't even know

I am not worried about hurting or leaving her

Many lovers mAnd each one can do what he ever he feels like
And each one can do what he ever he feels likeet and they didn't go on. You see you are nothing for me you want to read again ok read this.

What is wrong with you, didn't you love another people and you are with them
Why you are asking about me, without letting them know

What is wrong with you, didn't you love another people and you are with them
Why you are asking about me, without letting them know

What is wrong with you, didn't you love another people and you are with them
Why you are asking about me without letting them know

Didn't you forget my pain, oh then what is wrong with you
You still want to be with me or what, or what happened to you

Be careful the people love you might know the truth
They would know that i am still in your mind every single minute

Be careful the people love you might know the truth
They would know that i am still in your mind every single min

What is wrong with you, didn't you love another people and you are with them
Why you are asking about me, without letting them know

What is wrong with you, didn't you love another people and you are with them
Why you are asking about me, without letting them know

Even if you come or go you don't forget my love
You are making your mind busy thinking about me and looking for me

either you gone or came you don't forget my love
You are making your mind thinking of me and looking for me

What is wrong with you, didn't you love another people and you are with them
Why you are asking about me, without letting them know

What is wrong with you, didn't you love another people and you are with them
Why you are asking about me, without letting them know

After all of this I am waiting for one day the day I will take my revenge, you will taste my punishment. You knew the one who loved u more than anything in his life and now u will know a new one.

A monster with no emotions. I will make you cry for me saying please Mohand be merciful, I loved you but sorry, on that day there won't be mercy, it will be my time to see the oppression in your eyes, I will be like an animal.

Firstly I will destroy your dignity then I will cut your flesh, drinking your blood as a wine which was made in Scotland hundred years ago then I will remove your heart feeling its beats in my hand, on that time I can say that I can live like an ordinary person but not really, I will work hard gaining fame and money but without love.

Because your love is in my heart and will be until my death and I won't marry because I decided to marry you, and you had gone away.

I won't be a father because if I will have kids you will be their mother I don't imagine a mother for my children except you

I want you to enjoy your time and live your life we are human beings we must make mistakes in our life.

Bye